Wednesday, July 04, 2007

im a packet of unhappiness.
anyway, well not that life is all that bad. they gave out free brownies in school, which i thought was probably the high-light of my tuesday. okay all in all, school is such a bore REALLY. except for the few moments i have nice chats with my classmates which comes as rarely as a comet. everybody's in a pycho-time-line schedule and they've spun me into it too. it's so stressful. like going out for lunch makes me feel so out of skin, like it doesn't quite fit into my life equation.
and when i get home, i rest this tired soul, i drown myself in the lord's music, because it's the only thing that keeps me from reaching break point.



and that aside, i have been a procrastinator and im hating that.
i haven't booked our reservation at chijmes yet.
i haven't gone past the first few lines of my top3achievements.
i'm so darn boiled down with work, i can't even mentally recall all the church duties i have. and i know i'm almost fully booked for the next 2 months.
i'm so increasingly stressed about breaking out of the shell and getting the MUSIC going because i think our church needs to grow, our music has to grow, we need new songs, new people, we need to MOVE. it makes me all torn apart inside. GOD HELP ME PLEASE HELP ME HELP ME.
and like i can feel like a terrible friend. but i feel like i have terrible friends also. i need a chloe miller or a jeremy baxter to make me feel good again.

so far i've checked out the nus website. only dentistry looks like a good course to me. which worries me, becos if i don't go in i'll be totally lost. and i guess i'm set on staying here. like, i don't really have a choice. ok don't make me cry again./ trust me, i don't want to go to nus.

by peifang at 10:16 PM |