pw- we actually got to speak with the rehab patients how coooool is that. once in a lifetime experience. n we trooped to old airport road for kway chap.ahah fats. but i've nvr eaten there before. now all that's left is to tidy up our written report. kudos to our group!
dinner at missyoucafe. the ambience at night is MILES apart from that in the afternoon, it was super nice la. can't wait to go back again. at night(:candlelite, wine and all.nice food, nice place, nice people. heck, i'll celebrate my birthday there even! at night of course. didn't go shopping at all this week, i guess deep inside i'm subconsciously saving up for something special(: and it will be very big and very special. haha.
fireworks at marine bay tonight, i got 3 invitations(: but i still think it's not worth going, since i just witnessed the real thing at nationaldayparade from kimi's and i wanna spend the night hangin out with the juniors at the chalet later.
i'm going on a nine-day programme to eat 3 meals a day only. self-employed motivator to get rid of junk in my system. it has suffered tooooo much. so snacks only include fruits. i've got 6 1/2 days more. I CAN DO IT
it's frustrating
it makes me go off my rocker
you keep giving me things i don't want
you don't know what i like
i don't like these things
how can u go on pretending you don't see that i'm not enjoying it
i don't like being forced to do what i don't want to do
i've stopped believing in fairytales.
this is hard.
so very hard.
i had a bad dream.
i dreamt someone died.
when i woke up.
i couldn't find solace.
why can't you be my knight in shining armour?
perhaps it's time to reconsider everything.
went swimming n tanning with my best friends today(: it was gloriously sunny, and we studied at starbucks before that aaand we really did pigout. swimming was quite funny cos we were doing stupid dancing thingies in the pool,and i saw two disgusting ahpehs seducing middle-aged china women n i really wanted to puke my muffin out. playin around,even with all those wrinkles on your body. if i knew your wives you guys would be dead meat now. uack. sick. we had ben&jerry's after that, my brother says i'm too fat. shucks. but cannot resist laaaaaa):
my sugar intake today was SKY HIGH if i don't cut down i'm gonna be diabetic. that's scary. sugar puffs for breakfast, chocolate muffin n hot cocoa starbucks, ben&jerry's and dadada. I'M GOING TO DIE. shiiiiiiitt.
went to kimi's house fr national day celebrations, dinner with her mom's family. we watched the fireworks from her rooftop, pretty(: i was using binos, this yr they did put in a lot of money n effort!
i can't believe he is your best friend.
can u like someone with a best friend whom you know is bad news.
it's scary.
cos u'd think , oh what if you're like him.
but you seem so different,
i don't know. it's probably me thinkin too much.
oh but you know what they say
'that guy's a a great friend, but such a jerk with the girls'
i hope you're great both ways
the whole day was spent rotting all around singapore with my PW mates. but we did score a fabulous interview at this rehab half-way house. a humbling experience.many thanks for the sir's patience! our project work's sailing smoothly(:
and thanks for making my day(:
you are my sunshine my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are grey
you'll never know dear how much i love you
please don't take my sunshine away
saturday
played computer games with derrick at his place.he's so cute, kept asking me to play cos maybe i'm good hahahaha. TRUE! anyway, it was a fun time(: i LUFF my cousin!
sunday
church was pretty fine. janell was signalling her ** hand signs to me during service, sending both of us into hopeless giggles.i showed her,cheryl,n benita mr-wonderful's face in my phone. yes it was a close-up picture of his face. i put it as my wallpaper heeheee. for the day only! it got too funny .janelll you like his face tooooooo don't you(: hahaha. kept making me turn on infrared,bluetooth what not mms, but cannot send. no affinity la huh concentrate on narry!! HEEHEE. but cheryl said he looks like vs JEREMY from church, which is haunting me cos i DO SEE THE RESEMBLANCE, but oh please don't confuse me with HIS FACE! lol.
met cheryl n benita fr dinner at billybombers and starbucks fr dessert later. ohhhmyyyyyy i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE this agnes b. bag i tell you we screamed when we saw it! LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT. it's 185 bucks.i think i'll get it fr my birthday yaaaay.i found a present this yr woopee. anyway, then benita complained complained complained about her friend and alan all the way from far east to tangs it was so hilarious! and we wanted to go to the marriot hotel restaurent but they only served alcohol so it was a nono last night. hey but it's got really nice atmosphere, outdoors(:
i let go of a friendship with someone whom i've always thought of as someone i could depend on. and it seems like he can't be bothered either. sometimes it's so hard to see the truth that it's so tiring and hurtful to talk to both parties. i wish i never heard anything at all. why is it that it's wrong to trust people, why is it that when u trust people you always discover that people take advantage of it. you tell me, that to survive i have to be wary of everyone around me, i'm too innocent, i'm too gullible, i'm too stupid. maybe it's true, i see the inner person whom i think is nice and earnest, but when u tell me it's all shit, it's such a slap in my face.i don't know whether to use my heart or to listen to all the shit thrown right at me.it's too late anyway, bye hottie.
monday
training was mighty fine, the girls trooped down to parkway fr dinner and we had such a lovely time giggling over everything! i love you guys(:
see YOU tomorrow(:
