hello i'm blogging again cos i'm in a good mood today
my horrible results - BCDEE. hurhur. but at least i passed everything so, thank God for that. although it seems super shit when u compare to the geniuses.
i promise to be good and study hard next year! i don't want to see a single E next year.
after the dumb university talk tmr, i can go SHOPPING WITH GLADYS. yay.
oh oh oh i'm so in need of some relaxation, away from PROJECTWORK.
played squash with ginny today, almost 'lost' my racket. thank goodness not, i really would have cried.
anyway, i'm not feeling sad anymore. i'm actually very happy today (:
okay okay, let me soak in my dandyness don't bug me unless absolutely necessary! (:
we had sakae buffet today . MY VERY FIRST SAKAE
BUFFET. (: oh so happy, we were all smiles all the way to marina. and we ate a lot, a lot fr us anyway. i hid rice for my very first time hahaha . actually i would have wanted more yam mochi, it was so nice so nice so nice so nice, maybe cos i've nvr had mochi before . yes, NoOb. it was fun la, we windowshopped fr a little while, eric pointed out
nice heels in novo and all of us found it very amusing. ahhaha.
OP thing made me feel very dejected, let's just skip that.
the many million things i've wanted to say:
oh they're all quite randomly written by the way
i miss my best friends very much. it's so ironic how the people you're supposed to be close to are the people you see the least. do you know how hard it is to bottle everything up and have nobody to talk to, nobody who asks, nobody who sees beyond that i'm-ok facade. how many thoughts i've kept to myself, with noone to share with and it all gets lost somewhere in space where i'll never get to retrieve back. even in a whole bunch of people, i feel so alone. but when i think about it, like they do in the movies, even if you don't see your best friends for twenty years down the road, when you meet up you're still best friends and the friendship is still alive. i think it's something we should all hold close to our hearts. i'm glad i'm meetin gladys this saturday, even if we don't find something nice to buy, which i don't think should happen again, we can go get her halloween costume(:
i've always told you i'll be here for you. i know you're hurt so why won't you share with me..
even if we haven't been talking it doesn't mean we're not friends anymore. i don't think friendship is something that dies away, or a momentary thing. i'll be sticking by you as long as you need it. i'll never stop caring , ok? atleast, just believe that. you listened to me when i was depressed, it didn't make you like me less.
another thing i've long wanted to complain about. the closer you are as friends the nicer you should be to one another, it doesn't mean that you can expose all your atrocities and let your friend suffer at your expense because ' it's ok, you know me, i'm like that' . i think that's a completely completely completely horrible way to think.
OKAY. that was ultra long.
just a last shout-out, i miss stephanie n gladys n fiona MUCHMUCHMUCHMUCH!
i don't know who my real friends are
unfortunately, sunday's shoppin was a no-go. watched gong with ben late into the night. i bought the vcd(: haha. and i've just completed it, cooped up in the house just watching gong. and being horribly sick. i've blown out 4 handkerchiefs, blessed they aren't mine, i can't go fr training, i can't go out and i can't talk and it's really really burning hot, darnit indonesian fires!
i'll better be well by thursday. i'm not gonna spend my holidays rotting at home getting well. wedesday's training is a no-go too.
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy . i've not been sick since forever.
it's so
unfair unfair unfair unfair unfair
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