COLOURMYCOUTURE

2008-08-10T19:13:00.007+08:00

2008-08-10T19:12:00.001+08:00

2008-08-09T21:13:00.003+08:00

MY LAB PARTNER. funny funny funny.
who was supposed to be my frightnight partner.
i need facebook man.

2008-06-23T22:11:00.004+08:00

2008-06-17T22:23:00.002+08:00

awesome.
awesome.
awesome.

i need piano lessons. someone take me.

2008-06-16T21:55:00.004+08:00

2008-06-13T22:38:00.002+08:00

shanghai was pretty fine. hangzhou, suzhou, nanjing, wuxi. my knowledge of chinese history is a lot richer than it will ever be.but forget about quizzing me about names. mostly the weather was the greatest thing for me, break from the singapore scorch. being followed by two strangers in an odd complex which made me reach my breaking point was pretty funny, now that i think back about it.of course at that point it was anything but funny. n i didn't buy anything will you believe me?
kay man, i have to go for my medical checkup, sign my bond, pay my school fees, find a hall that will graciously take me in and MOVE IN!
communal living is going to take its toll on me man, gladys gladys! how to sleep without the aircon I HAVE MY FEARS. singapore is the hotttttttest place, no aircon is torturous.n it's all magnified by my mom nagging at me about how boys turn to men when they reach this age. ha ha.

no aircon, no tv, SHARED TOILET THE HORRRRROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no keyboard, NO AIRCON.
but desperate times call for desperate measures.

most of my friends are going to smu or ntu. this stinks.

2008-05-25T16:56:00.002+08:00

retreat.

in a week, off to holiday.

swimming tomorrow would be jolly fun. (:

gotta get a hair cut by thursday. cheaper one.

indiana jones last night at 11 pm was totally worth it.
he used to rock when he was young-er and could monkey swing with his useful rope. but shia was hilarious with his hair combing obsession.
downtowneast mall simply rocks. indoor ferris wheel? anything that would make it less singaporeish is fantastic.

self entertainment. southern accent irritating singing. thinking which of my pasir ris friends i should call to go watch a movie at cathay downtown.
12 june. escape theme park agape kids.

johann did not poop on me or cry. we have linked fingers. i take it that he accepts my friendship.yay, babies rule.

2008-05-21T14:07:00.002+08:00

so far, i am reading and have read these 5 by alexander mccall. i have to read all 20 of his books! love it.
to kill a mocking bird was killing me, so i'm abandoning that mission.
so glad to meet gladys last night, treated her to crystal jade but we are probably small eaters because the bill was only 28 haha.
i'm so excited bout flying & holidaying!
eliza came up with this elaborate excel on the melbourne itinery and i feel like going haha, but i made a commitment to go for the retreats. priorities . but it's only 2 days. should my priority be to instead spend a long time with my brother whom i've not seen for so long and to know eliza better. HMMmmmm.

2008-05-14T12:57:00.002+08:00

so last night, i told.
the old adage that the eyes are the windows of the soul is absolutely dead right, not having to say a word knowing you understood. made it all the easier, because words are always confusing, always misleading. it feels better right now, knowing that someone knows
phrenology, if only we were brought up to believe. shape of skull - identification. it would be like sounding a siren to say danger-stay two feet away at all cost- on your head.
how intelligent is the heart?
actions, the natural body's way of shouting out a whisper that pounds on the inside.
i believe in signs, right now. when 1+2+3+4+5+6+7 people tell you the same thing, it's not a coincidence. sometimes, thinking of the many people you will save from sadness by sacrificing your desire, would make the world an easier place to live in, while waiting to walk from earth into eternity. life, it's long, 70 years, suppression isn't easy, but it sure works for the better of others.
if it is your wish that i kill this part of me, i will do it. bury it with love that was true, but buried it will be.
i listen to people who love me.

goal 2008- organise a gig for agape kids.

2008-05-12T10:24:00.002+08:00

one could never have enough socks, particularly in view of the tendency of socks to disappear in the laundry, no matter what precautions were observed, socks disappeared into the bermuda triangle for socks, a swirling vortex that swallowed one sock at a time, leaving its partner awfully stranded.
says alexander.
so, i've pretty much got both my trips planned out. one's confirmed, the other's not booked yet but i'm all set to go. one's a trip, one's more like an breakaway. you can still contact me, this time i will be considerate and leave my phone to operate normally. thankyou lulu for all your helpful travel advice, i'm definitely lookin forward to dining with you and kailee! above all else, the all saints' english woman's retreat is round the weekend, my first time leading adults. oh terror. on the inside. but it's pretty exciting, i just gotta work out a way to speak think listen to God play the piano keep my eyes open and sing simultaneously. i have no ability, but God will work a miracle on me.
i've come up with about 4 pages of new chords, all jazz progressions, and i just know the kids will be delighted to have them fr sunday school worship. i think they deserve more more more.when you work in a team with the adults, you gotta play to fit in, but when you're a one-man-island, it's whatever i want and i like that very much(: so well, one problem's fixed, i'm no longer sulking at the piano and feeling useless. the magic is inching back.
speaking to my brother again. he's urging me to go to either australia or the us to study dentistry if i fail to make the cut here. i've no idea what my dad's financial status is, but my brother says it's 'definitely sufficient' . i don't quite like sufficient, i will only consider if my dad has some magic windfall. right now the other house is enblocking, so if that happens successfully i will gladly go IF THERE'S a need. but right now, hopelessly hanging on to the skinny thread of hope of making it here is making me consider going australia again, but who am i to feel rich.
oh yes, i have been waking up at 3 am everyday since last monday, and waking up at 7 am everyday needless to say. sleep deprived monster.

2008-05-05T16:15:00.001+08:00

I am in need of music that would flow
Over my fretful, feeling fingertips,
Over my bitter-tainted, trembling lips,
With melody, deep, clear, and liquid-slow.
Oh, for the healing swaying, old and low,
Of some song sung to rest the tired dead,
A song to fall like water on my head,
And over quivering limbs, dream flushed to glow!

There is a magic made by melody:
A spell of rest, and quiet breath, and cool
Heart, that sinks through fading colors deep
To the subaqueous stillness of the sea,
And floats forever in a moon-green pool,
Held in the arms of rhythm and of sleep.

2008-04-27T21:40:00.001+08:00

marriot hotel breakfast ROCKS

2008-04-02T22:13:00.002+08:00

there's something that feels really good about shopping with a push-cart at ntuc . plus picking up teenvogue, one cross-word puzzle book fr grandmama n the one thousand(!)-sudoku book fr my mom. amazing, i'm powered by awesome.i love book stores. it's the best place to meet people. i'm reading this awesome book,i never bother with titles but i'm reading it as slowly as i can to get the most out of it. and reading's the best way to cheer up the ride home after work which s-u-c-k-s most of the time.
oh gosh, my almost last day at work. the morning i took the time to sit at coffeebean, and cos it was supposed to be like some ritualistic celebration, personally for me since now i actually can vouch that i've ever been employed, i even asked for whipped cream on my sunrise. whipped cream. i never take whipped cream. but it seems that i'm still working. it was depressing for like 10 seconds but it did make sense, i would go nuts doing nothing. right?after work of course i had to go to 7/11, it was just a natural reaction. and i watched my favourite movie, self-explanatory, a total of four times. but i feel good. really.
oh i met up with the guys and jiaying last weekend, wow park's hair was the first thing i noticed ahha. and their black specs. funny funny. i'm so lucky i don't have to torture myself with ns, i would not survive at all. we shared a cloud9, i think everybody was secretly eyeing the double chocolate fudge. or at least i was.the whole time. i don't need 9 flavours, just one. if i ordered my own cloud9, i would say double chocolate fudge nine please.
singing lessons start next thursday, oh maaan. thursday will be my new worst day of the week, UNLESS.

2008-03-27T20:59:00.002+08:00

after two years, i finally find storm newton's music on the web. and i have lost my crave for it.
it has been ages, since, ever. back to the day i saw all my friends on that faithful frightful friday, it's the only day that hugging them has ever felt so deserved. cos i totally missed every single one of them and it was more exciting to see them then to get the results whatever. seeing the familiar ones, those i've spent my two FULL years yakking with about every bit of everything underneath the sky, the wonders of how we all melded into a group of people living our lives together. ohgosh the nostalgia. for the record, i loved library moments. plus lab lessons, only when it wasn't dying hot. and all short fridays. (: i would literally live the two years all over again, minus the mugging.
so work at mount e is finally coming to an end, i'm gonna miss that lovely clinic, and saying goodmorning dr hong and leong's clinic how may i help you everytime the phone rings, and the cute coffeebean morning waiter haha. it's like byebye crazy town, byebye luckyplaza, byebye level12, byebye.
and hello my life again. (:

2008-03-23T16:09:00.002+08:00

if you want children,
you need a husband,
a trophy husband,
a God-loving husband,
a love-you husband,
a hard-working sacrificial husband,
a humorous husband,
a loyal husband,
an intelligent husband,
prerequisite-
you'll need a boyfriend,
who has the capability
to develop all as mentioned above,
you'll need to give birth before 28,
for lower risk of health problems,
and so your parents will be young grandparents
you'll want 2 years of courtship,
even that's too short,
you come out of your uni bond at 26.
26+2=28
so you'll have to meet your husband in school.
meaning, your boyfriend in college has to be your husband.
now what does that mean?
you tell me.

2008-03-03T21:52:00.000+08:00

Time is precious.
It is of the essence.
But no time is worth my time,
Unless that time is spent with you.
How time weighs heavily on my heart.
Oh, how time does eat away at me.
Time is not physical, but rather spiritual,
For no time is more spiritual then when you're with me.

2008-02-18T19:39:00.004+08:00

THANKS STEPH

2008-01-01T17:24:00.000+08:00

"if he already has a big ego, you need to deflate it with some shock therapy"

2007-12-21T18:35:00.002+08:00

first official present this Christmas(:
everything's been really rough these days. i preferred having school.
but i have the best job i must say, though going to town daily ( which means waking up at a baffling 7 am every single day ) is quite tiring. but working in a clean and smart environment is truly wonderful. not to mention all the useful skills i'm picking up (: and being treated to good food. mm mm mm. i'm beginning to marvel at how noble it must be to be a doctor, and a very good one of course. i'm starting to rethink my future.
i'm just worried about my grandmother, my prayer this christmas is for her to get better.
basically the hols have been pretty fun, though it's not as fun since misschua is not in town, but doing something very noble in kunming china(: having dinner with my squashmates was a mix of yummy and good ole hangingout. haven't really seen my class though ahha. they're having a steamboat buffet to celebrate ruiyang's birthday, but me, i'm stuck at home making-or rather constructing- cookie cutter shapes,oh jolly. the price of making christmas presents. since my brother is so adamant about NOT using ready-made mix. mm yes effort, i thought i had already learnt a lesson about that haha. well yeah anyway i hope to see all the rest of them when we celebrate mr weiming's birthday.
miss lulu is going to get me a coach wrislet.ESTATIC(:
JAZZ has not been going smoothly. michael buble is giving me a hard time, and my momentum totally ceased after church camp. bogged down with christmas preparations and work, i don't play the piano daily anymore. shame.
visit to justin's house yesterday, they just returned from tokyo. there was a LOT of food, yummy yummy food from japan. that boy is growing a little fatter haha/ still cute la. all the cousins were there so it was nice.
my daddy's mommy is in the pink of health too!
alrighty i hope this will be my last ever post here. a very merry christmas in advance to all those dear to me!

2007-11-26T10:07:00.000+08:00

so my a levels have ended!
i've had recurring dreams about flunking them. including one which was about me finding out i still had my physics paper 3 with me two weeks after the exam. apparently i didn't hand it in. ALSO, there was some 'close-passage' section on lasers or something and there were like 20 over blanks and i didn't fill 6. and not purposely. i just didn't see them. how horrible to have such nightmares right. i mean, i went through **** over my o level results already. i don't want to be depressed again.
and i seem like the only person worrying about my a level results.
or my career prospects.
somebody save me.
anyway, i've found an alternative to dentistry since my econs is megamega screwed. environmental engineering. so it's not environment science, but i think you can earn more next time lol. i never thought i'd like to be an engineer.
anyway, i went to ps with ben yesterday and carrefour is a great place mwahahaha. i'm glad i found the things i've been looking for for weeks.
finally got to chat with my brother for like almost 2 hours, whom is coming back this thursday!! i want to meet his girlfriend too because she must be SUPER nice for my brother to say that she is very very nice.
anyway, it's really busy these days, not so much with having fun or anything, upcoming christmas keeps you veryveryveryverybusy. i just hope i'm not too broke to give good presents this year.

my brother spent half an hour giving me a how-to-solve-a-rubiks-cube crashcourse. and i have forgotten everything. i wrote all the algorithms down but i couldn't read what i wrote. see, i think the tamagotchi would've been more suitable for my earthly intelligence.

2007-11-18T14:57:00.000+08:00

you're my royal blue raspberry cross-stitch
my black bow sequin dream
a dashing navy cut-out
my midnight stud
oh what would i do without you

2007-11-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

MATH IS OVER
MAMAMIAA!
so over.
i have so many exciting things to do after my exams!
i just have great ideas to make me some magic fingers. i'm going to make my fingers magic. i'm going to drown myself in jazz. magic fingers. mine! i'll swallow the keyboard if i have to. not that i already haven't. my mom says we are as good as one (: well that's task number 1. task number two is BIGASTHESKY and FUNASTHEOCEAN. task number 3 is intensive reading. i'm going to know all about adolf hitler, the gulf war, the korean war and everything history holds. because all i've been doing this year is reading crappy science theorems and what nots. task number 4 is exercising cos i've been very hedonistic this whole year, i'm not going shopping until i'm fit. heheh. task number 5, find me a job.

I LOST MY SPECTACLES. THIS IS INCREDIBLY IRRITATING.
remember what we were told- don't steal your friend's things during the A levels, even if you had a deprived childhood.
SURRENDER MY SPECTACLES!

2007-10-17T11:07:00.000+08:00

pishposh.
this is what i call a disaster.
my mom is peeved that i'm sick and she forced me to sleep at 9.

2007-10-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

maybe i'll let you know how much it all means to me. one day.

2007-10-12T15:28:00.000+08:00

2007-10-09T10:48:00.001+08:00

i thank God for my classmates, for making my two years unforgettable.
kailee,chenlu,xinyi,serhua,jiaying,shiyun,xiyun,park,rh,weiming,
ruiyang,mrkwek,addison,jh,terence,eric,jianmin,sundar.muahaha.
andginny,rachel,sinHWEE,sharon,anna,yinghan,jonathanpoh,MRCHAN.and all the other people whom aren't my classmates and teammates.

by the way
ROCK STARS ROCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!

silly but hey, you're got to admit, you can't fault me.

2007-10-06T11:01:00.000+08:00

jonathan looks retarded haha i'm so happy!

DEMING okAy (:

guess who's the bravest and craziest girl i know. she climbed on top of the taupok mountain!

basically we had our farewell assembly. and. it was probably one hour of cam whoring in our favourite T26. i was appalled and amused because the guys in my class are more majorly cam-whorish than the girls. as in really ahhaha. so all the photos aren't up yet la. too bad we didn't catch the taupok mountain. we had fish-n-co while i sat there feeling quite sore because mrdanielang treated his whole class and we treated.. ourselves. but we got flowers (: so yes, this is the end of everything! almost.

2007-09-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

the end of a long week! we got back most of our scripts, ahhh mmm no good.
but i have no time to brood over mistakes, because this engine's already gearin up for the real thing. sometimes i just have to accept that i'm not queen genius, be realistic and put in a lot of effort.
a shout-out to Ben for treating me to a nice belated birthday lunch(:
and to Kailee n SerHua, because i'm positive they put it most effort in getting me my birthday presents, which i love but couldn't express because i was in post-receiving math paper depression, plus all those who contributed bling-wise(:
and to my dad for understanding that i have to give up grand Hyatt buffets to stay in on saturdays.
generally, everything's fine, good even, i actually had time to jog this evening to keep fit hahaha.
and i hope i get the raffles medical dental apprenticeship, it would be the GREATEST internship i could ask for.
drink lots of water, pile up on vitamin C and sleepsleepsleep my dear friends!

2007-09-24T20:32:00.001+08:00

my boyfriend has to love n'sync.

2007-09-24T20:15:00.001+08:00

2007-09-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

guess who's treating me to lunch tmr(;(:

soup spoon's got yummy salads by the way, but it doesn't quite fit, the way you can totally engage in the conversation at the next table. it's like they're talkin to you. it takes a lot to hold your own conversation when the guy and girl next door are talkin really loudly.

anyway i was wondering,
can u be the godzilla girlfriend and then a bettycrocker wife. does it work that way? mmm, it's not really worth the thought.

2007-09-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

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2007-09-17T10:26:00.000+08:00

you know how.
i think my exams are over.
but truth is, they're really not.
but long weekends are totally deceiving. i have been lazing round like the biggest bum on earth when i have three more science papers. haha -___-

there's this overwheliming JOY i can't quite explain.
i can't wait to hit the pool man. or anything that beats tv. and the hairdressers' my mom promised i can go see IVAN YAY! if there's one hairdresser you can trust, it's the prof you're related to who gives you free salon samples all the time(: hello exams, no time to cut my frizzy wizzy pms hair. my hair has a life on its own now. and my gosh, imagine the fun hangin out and doing stuff yay!
time to be truly happy. (:

2007-09-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

oh why am i doing this.
i know my friends read all the non-intelligent things i write on this blog although they refuse to comment and then they ambush me in person . which i realise i won't want to remember or let my kids in the future know about (: so i will close this thing down once i have the time.
EVERYBODY hang on tight to this rollercoaster! the going's tough but exams are stones we just need to turn over. stop giving the sad face and mopping around. it's not a life-and-death situation. i miss seeing my friends smile, they all look like zombies out of a thousand-old refrigerator.
physics was really quite a good appetiser, math murder though.
mr chan emailed me to thank me for my card, ahha i'm so happy.
i think i need to brush up on my bowling skills.
and my study skills man.
i want tuition because i want 10 million ASTARS.

2007-08-24T20:25:00.000+08:00

OH.
it's the last day of school! and all i can say is that it was pleasant, memorable in some made-up sense, nobody seems too sad bout it though. maybe i'm the only emo one feeling sad. yes, exams start next monday, but school's over! jc's over! NO MORE! so i camped in the library for my last ever memorable 3-period break, picked up an excellent read, more like a jewel really, read this article about human trafficking, got really sappy about it, asking myself, surely my life has a higher calling than studying, getting a degree, marrying someone good, shopping for a bag. i want to be a humanitarian of some sort, i am standing at a historical turning point in my life, searching and finding a greater cause for myself. i read about the benin slave ship and oh thank God for not letting me cry because my heart did ache for the innocent children/ this earth is polluted, polluted by the malevolence that is us.

and as MUCH as it bothers me everyday, i have to commit my time to my fore-most responsibility of getting my work done.

so like i was saying, today was jolly! cos i got timtam from kailee which totally brightened my emoday up. and steph bought me a munchy donut which was not bad! ahha.

ZMON HARRY i choose you!
ahhahahhahahahaa(:

2007-08-21T16:03:00.000+08:00

chew on it

2007-08-19T21:33:00.000+08:00

then there was me, waiting to fall right in.

2007-08-18T11:06:00.001+08:00

yesterday i went out my my mom after school(: it was incredible cos everybody's probably at home mugging their brains so dry and there wasn't a single student in sight. it was so pure hahaa. we had a nice lunch chatting and my mom ordered the full course goodness. then we went shopping(: she bought me a nice dress from warehouse yay. shopping with moms's really the best. then i showed her the bag from topshop i wanted for my birthday and she said it was ugly and i hadn't even said anything! so now i have to think of something else. but my mind's blank. shall wait then.
anyway, school's been flying by so fast. this is my last week with my classmates, my school, my finally-cold library, my thai-pan cravings. i can't imagine life w/o shool. i may detest work and everything, but i'll feel so lost. who am i kidding, it's heart-wrenching!

2007-08-18T11:01:00.000+08:00

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..

2007-08-12T21:23:00.001+08:00

what i fear most.
is absolutely unwritten.

today i butchered my hair at jeanyip. maybe it was my angst acting up again. i just decided i needed to cut my hair. maybe it was because of the scorching sun. so i just walked in. and the guy spent like 2 hours cutting 3 inches off. that's what i asked for, which is about the length of my pinky. and he also gave me a long undesired thesis on my hair and his skills. seriously dude, i just want to cut my hair! i don't want to know what a blunt technique is ): he just kept talking and talking about hair. thankgoodness the call saved me.
but at least i didn't leave the salon crying right, that's good that's good.

2007-08-09T20:54:00.001+08:00

blogger likes to screw up my entries so i have to eventually delete them.
anyway, my life is utterly so blah now .
it's national day and everybody's out havin bbqs and parties and my parents are at marina bay, yes that means they're on tv, almost. and i'm stuck at home, fighting my lazy genes. i just googled chem out of desperation becos i needed help ); isn't that tragic! my brother bought 2 tubs of ben& jerry's for me to make my night less miserable. not that it helps cos i'm totally not going to eat it and add to my misery. i'm going to wake up and run at 7 am tmr, ha. to release all my angst that has built up this week from realising the whole world has the week off too and that my study schedule seems to be getting tighter by the millisecond. and all the blabla things that happened in between. not that they were bad things, just things. maybe i don't want things, any thing for that matter, who cares about my birthday present anyway, i just want to be able to watch tv and sleep and not studi my brains dry.
angsty angsty.

not to mention the fact that i woke up at 930 today, totally missing an important episode of the follow-up to yesterday's Cheer's at 8 am. which totally made me feel sucky for the whole day/ and the ONE mosquito which has been trying to infect me since yesterday which I CANNOT KILL.
and that ******************************* had to totally drive me up the wall. GO ANGST GO!

2007-08-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

i just came back from the squash women's world champ semi-finals. nicol david is like WOOOW. STUPENDOUS. i was sitting in the third row, i count myself most fortunate haha cos it was packed to the max, literally. bought this prince racket. so unfair, cos now i feel like playing but i have no time to do sooo ) :
studyin with steph at coffee bean was quite good cos the new notepad i have is really good for doing math hahaha. yeah DSTA! (:" to buy my ticket for sitting there the whole afternoon i bought the ' today's brew' which tasted like kampong coffee to me, and it was A LOT, and now i'm so awake. shall s-t-u-d-y/
today we stood on the grass field for the last time. and took a photo of the whole school. personally, i don't really care much, it's the first time in my two years i'm standing on the field ahha. and all i see is mud and grass. we stood there for eoons. so synthetic huh? that's quite nice, but i'd rather they use the money to get us toilet seats. not that i really care anymore (:
hmmm hmmm.
oh apple of my eye apple of my eye, i see you, oh apple of my eye.

2007-07-30T19:26:00.000+08:00

God knows,
when you're sick of life and tired of people
God knows.
so he sends the bus to come on time
you'll never have to wait.
God sends my bus to come on time
so i won't have to wait.
He knows what i'm feeling deep down and he tells me it'll be ok.
God's controlling traffic just so i can get home earlier,
he does it everyday.
i know He'll give me sweet dreams tonight
so i'll be all better.
Thankyou Lord for keeping my heart from ignoring you.

2007-07-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

i just caught 'win a date with tad hamilton!'
and i thought it needed a chick flick to relieve me of all the turmoil i've been through this week
josh duhamel is like every girl's dream boat.

2007-07-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

my class is loving psp now. 3 psps to be exact.
today was probably the most handicapped day i've had so far. i forgot to bring my phone, which was quite a terrible mistake to make of all days since i'd be out till like 8. so, i msged my dear friend gladys like a gazillion times, using different phones, because i couldn't decide where and when to meet her and i kept changing my fickle mind. then we three girls hopped to town to collect out certs finally! and we did some shopping in takashimmaaaya. jiaying is positively a crazee shoppaholic. she bought like 6 pieces of clothing and heels. she bought something in every shop we went to. haha. so, this is where the dumbness then begins. i made my way to raffles city, and i was late, but she was even later lol. so i ride the escalator to the third floor, OOH where's coffee club. i walk around in circles. take the elavator down to the 2nd floor. no coffee club. i take the escalator to the third floor again. walk around in circles again. WHERE ON EARTH IS IT, it wasn't THAT exclusively hidden the last time i came. and then i realised i had been conveniently siaming all those renovation signs, you know those big fake wall cover-ups. it took me so dang long to realise those make-shift walls meant it was under renovation. i thought the walkways had shrunk.
so then i begin my ' find wally in the crowd' search for gladys which was absolutely stupid cos she wasn't even there. then, i go to the concierge to make a call. i felt like a lost kid. i wanted to ask them to make an announcement but thankfully my pride stopped me. so then, gladys thought i was some salesperson trying to sell magazines and pots and pans to her so she refused to pick up the MysterY call. i was practically dying of helplessness -____-
all in all, you need a phone. i have learnt my lesson well. i will never leave that block of wires at home everagain.
we had a nice wasabi prawn salad and MUDPIE(: we bought the same zara jacket and i got these mango pants yay!
college day tmr!

2007-07-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

so many things have happened in the past 3 days i can't recount them all!
monday was a horror in itself. the worst day of the whole year. period. almost. i'm just going to pretend monday was a did-not.
yesterday i went down to somerset with kailee to collect our letters and they weren't there!!!!! like although they were very nice about it, it was such a wasted trip): but at least i got to chat with her on the bus haha.
and i got second prize in my class for the progress award for chemistry. haha i feel like such a cheater-bug man. there was a ceremony! mrs foo gives the best prizes(:
and PE WAS SUPERIFIC! at first the plan was to play tennis with ronghua and weiming, then it rained like why like why. and the classes were doing this GYMNASTIC-DANCE-EXERCISE THING and there was this guy the school employed to lead us. it was such a richard simmons moment! he was standing on the stage, with a portable radio and everything.and i don't see why weiming thinks he's very fat. IT WAS TOTALLY ROCKING FUNNY. then miss jiaying was so caught up in the moment she decided to join in even though she was in uniform. and weiming went in and was doing funny contortions hahaha. jiaying has everything on for youtube. and i don't know what on earth possessed me to join them. must be jiaying's OVER enthusiasm ahhaha. but i loved it! the crumping was uber fun. like who gives a toot about looking like a fool- it was liberating!
studying with steph was quite funny. good luck steph, good luck(:
and i loved the subway delivery! having subway for lunch in school is the best. hands down.
this week my favourite lecturers are mr chad goh and mr lam. they're totally making me love school.
i saw a dead bat at the squash courts again, the horror. when i ate lunch with mr chan he was telling me about the migration of the bats and the nuts they ate haha. and about st pats boys and kc girls. and how i'm so square becos i haven't met people with tattoos. and how it's ah-lian to wear gold bracelets. !! haha.

OK BACK TO THE BED. last night was so drama. but now it's all over and we've patched up.
it's ok to cry sometimes. just know that things will always get better!

8days this week has very funny haha jokes. go read!

2007-07-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

on wednesday i declared international friendship day myself. i went to the carebear website and took the carebear quiz and i discovered i'm a Friend Bear. haha how ironic is that.
so here's this week's story, my brother's back in melbourne. he won't be around to see my head grow purple from mugging for my a levels.
so far i have maintained the not-too-bad healthy eating in school. i refuse to eat chicken rice, like for the rest of my life. and malay rice or whatever. i have to stay healthy and anal and sick-less all the way to until my a levels end. it's not too early.
we took team photos for the school magazine. mr chan said i was the cutest, like omg no he's embarassing me again, so i had to stand in the middle. sometimes i feel like i'm the best to poke fun at. but whatever la, at least we always have a bundle of fun and laughter. at least he didn't call me auntie/butterfly-swapper/A-SOH( my least favourite ).
had time to go speed-shopping with serhua after school. and to parkway again with steph for the body-shop sale. i love the smell of the body lotion it makes you want to eat it like ice-cream! and it's so stupid cos now i keep smelling my hands cos they smell so lovely and people probably think i'm mental.
i'm craving for coffee club sandwish, NO NOT AGAIN, some things you just don't get sick of. so i HOPE i can go siglap( which happens to be so near by the way(: ) with gladys and hopefully stephanie too this week.
i don't know why weiming and ronghua think i look like a monica. it's the first i've ever heard and i'm quite appalled haha.
watch Britain's Got Talent on youtube! connie's really an angel, you've got to listen to that 6-year-old sing. and i mean, really, sing.
and you know i sat myself down yesterday to write 2 ESSAYS. like i did such a good job, maybe not the perfect essays but more like getting the job done. i feel so good :D
do you know that your classmates see you at your worst?
- when you've just woken up from a long date with the z monster and you've left an ocean of drool on your lecture notes.
- when you're panting for life after running around the track like an energizer bunny on rechargeables. and your face is as red as chilli crab.
- ok, uniforms could be the worst.
- your limited facial expressions, worst, your impatience with the math lecturer for talking to us like we're retarded 3-year-olds who only know the shape of a spoon.
whaaat is school like?
- the library is the heaven for everybody. the orange couches always occupied, people snooze till the bell rings. everybody is guilty of this man.
- longest queue for buying secret illegal fried chicken drumsticks.

this is not exhaustive. but i'm exhausted. shall come back and say more when i have nothing better to do(:

2007-07-18T19:12:00.000+08:00

those are the pictures from our dinner last saturday. i will forever remember that i ate 100 dollars worth of food myself. it always helps to know the owner cos we got free cake from the french restaurant across the street(:
anyways, it has been such a crazy week ok. and crazy means i have to contain it. so u can imagine how my heart is beating at bopbopbopbopbopbopbop speed per minute, something is trying to jump out. but it's like top secret. hahaa.
okay i'm going to turn true-blue hardworking now. i am sick of sulking over my results.
the class is going through a re-structuring. i don't like all the hidden politics. it's like, ok let's trash it all out and stop gossiping it's such a waste of time.
apart from all tt,
my mind's quite busy thinking about my different schedules, my long checklist of things to do. i'm so afraid i'll miss something out! a lot of waiting. system's down. poopoo. waiting for mr kwek to come back so i can finally change my achievements. OH what a tumbler of stress i bottle everyday.
who has time to think about boys, seriously!

2007-07-15T21:45:00.000+08:00

2007-07-14T13:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday i watched transformers, because i waited for everyone else to watch it first and tell me if it was worth it. well, it was quite nice but i lost my concentration during the last half-hour and i was basically dreaming about my own prince charming. it was totally lame, but i really felt bored. and all i remember of shia is his irritating character in even stevens so. and i saw man-eater hahahaha.
my dad picked us up and we spun around the east looking for restaurants which were TOTALLY CROWDED. friday nights are mad.
anyways, it's been such a good-turned bad week.
for once im so happy about my results, and then i get hit with one rotten bad egg and i have been in this semi-depressed mode for the past 2 days. IT REALLY FEELS LIKE THE END OF THE WORLD, i know i know.
woke up at 7 today(: all saturday mornings have been devoted to family-exercise time. we had teh-tarek at seletar then we went to play tennis. TENNIS IS SO FUN. and i think i had some super shots haha. but i also had a lot of grossly out-of-league shots. i can't change my grip to the eastern one, so i basically used all of my bull strength and it was mostly frustrating.anyways, benita and kimi will be comin over and we'll go celebrate MY BROTHER'S birthday.
oh yes! the squash juniors treated us to changing appetites at marina this week. ohgosh our food was horrible, please don't go there. and the bill was so screwed, and the service nah-uh. i can't believe they charge that price for such bad goo. so we treated them to swenson's after that becos it was such an unsatisfying dinner.
and nobody's going for prom. yay(: and it's probably bad for me to say this, but in all honesty, i have only made less than 8 good friends in my class. why would i want to go to prom with people i don't even talk to, won't it be weird. exactly. i'm rethinking the holiday also, so no promises. i'm such a tortoise, OH THAT'S SO FUNNY COS THAT'S what mr chan calls me haha, i stay in my shell and i don't bother about the rest of the world. i'm so glad my friends don't mind the tortoise that i am. i mean, if i were miss A or mr X, i'd think i'm the hardest person to talk to. i'm stone cold to people i don't know but miss chatternonstop to people i really know. and rachel still calls me the pr of squash.
now i have to learn how to lock my blog.

2007-07-13T14:33:00.000+08:00

Doesn't a picture speak more than a thousand words?
today we watched the inconvenient truth. it's this documentary-movie in Al Gore's perspective.
and you know at the rate we, the inhabitors of this earth, are going, it's due time before we all are covered by the melted glaciers! major contributors like *** and ***** are chasing their economic dreams. what do we do then? can we give up gold for this planet's survival? it's so ironic, WHY would people indignantly carry on with their large-scale hazardous productions knowing they're killing themselves simultaneously. it really hits you hard because we are literally killing the earth we live in exponentially. COME ON, WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE. do you want cities to disappear and all the polar bears to die and a billion new diseases to breed!

here's what we can start doing
Unplug Un-used Electronics
Even when electronic devices are turned off, they use energy. Save over 1,000 lbs of carbon dioxide and $150 per year.

2007-07-10T19:55:00.000+08:00

sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy. a great friend once told me that the more coffee i drink, the sleepier i get. today was a MEGA- test of my attention span.

tmr we're having dinner at ps with the squash freshies yay(: i'm going to go shopping man.
and im watching a movie with my brother on friday
and i'm eating dinner with my family at my dad's friend's japanese restuarant, no more chijmes. cos my brother does NOT want to eat any western food now. understandably. but i don't quite like paying a bomb for raw fish either.
and i'm leading worship on sunday with the kids, oh STRESS.
and it's my nana's baptism on sunday(: (: (:
and i got back chem and i thank God for how i managed to get an A in the end. HE IS BLESSING ME TRULY!
wow weiming is first for national sailing! powerful man. hope ronghua does well for his nationals too!

gladys tan-this is for you! how are YOOOUUUU doin! i miss u lots lots lots. and i have to pass you your wonder-shoes(:

2007-07-09T17:48:00.000+08:00

i've been craving for m&ms!
my math was quite disappointing, i made tonnes of dumb mistakes. like plus and minus signs and copying wrong numbers and all that. whopping price to pay): stupid C. yeah, so next time, which will be my prelims, i will study for all my papers. this time it was a time-issue.
i'm so tired from my weekend nonsense. friday i went to kailee's hometown ( haha) to collect our package from the post-office! (: then we had prata near her house. when i went home, i was feeling so darn restless so i decided to go for a run. after half-an-hour, i finally got my stamina rolling but i stopped cos ' why would i want to run for more than half-an-hour '. then saturday morning i played two hours of squash with my dad and my brother. so now, i am facing the aftermath of having not exercised for so long. i need to get fit.
and there's so much DRAMA now. i find school practically unbearable. UNBEARABLE): i keep thinking of how nice it would be if i had this friend or that friend in my school. but it's all wishful thinking. at least, there are a few sane ones in my class whom I'M SO THANKFUL FOR! becos without them i think i would have gone bonks.
physics lab was quite funny. pair work became sixtet work. or whatever it is for 6. there were sparks from the wires! circuits fascinate me, they're incredibly cool hahaa. though i've only had bad memories of working with electricity, i'm a hazard to the lab. then we used the heavy-duty magnets to move eric's tigger around , haha very funny.
i'll be locking my entries from now on cos i have some prohibited nonsense to say(: (: so just text me on msn for the password!
peace!
and throw your rubbish into the bins, and turn off the lights! save the earth! answer the call!
i'm seriously getting into this environmental movement. it's so intrigueing. i want to know more and i want to do something about it. it helps that that's what we're discussing in gp now. and may i say that terence is a jolly good speaker!

2007-07-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

peifang got an A FOR PHYSICS!
my heart was doing 10 somersaults when i got my paper(: though i was quite upset that i got my kinematics part wrong, and i got one structured question all wrong. but i still got A , yay power me!
and then kailee called me to say the birks have arrived YAYYAYYAY!
and, i ate one whole pizza for lunch i duno why, i was waiting for my stomach to feel full but that never came in time. so i'm going to detox for dinner now.
anyway, today mr lee was telling us about how our first prelim paper is on september 10. i was shocked! my birthday's on the 4th! i won't celebrate then!
so i quickly called my mom. and we've decided that i'll just celebrate along with my brother's extremely belated one at chijmes. he's is very late, mine's much too early. well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANYWAY!
there's a birthday party this saturday, oh foodie you're my one enemie.
anyways, i had coffeeclub lunch with steph on tuesday. it was a nice place to chill. still i ought to hit myself, for not knowing that there exists a coffee club in siglap. all i know it that thai express, cartel, starbucks, pizzahut, what else. now i can save all the trouble la! now i can walk to coffee club from school!(:

2007-07-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

im a packet of unhappiness.
anyway, well not that life is all that bad. they gave out free brownies in school, which i thought was probably the high-light of my tuesday. okay all in all, school is such a bore REALLY. except for the few moments i have nice chats with my classmates which comes as rarely as a comet. everybody's in a pycho-time-line schedule and they've spun me into it too. it's so stressful. like going out for lunch makes me feel so out of skin, like it doesn't quite fit into my life equation.
and when i get home, i rest this tired soul, i drown myself in the lord's music, because it's the only thing that keeps me from reaching break point.

and that aside, i have been a procrastinator and im hating that.
i haven't booked our reservation at chijmes yet.
i haven't gone past the first few lines of my top3achievements.
i'm so darn boiled down with work, i can't even mentally recall all the church duties i have. and i know i'm almost fully booked for the next 2 months.
i'm so increasingly stressed about breaking out of the shell and getting the MUSIC going because i think our church needs to grow, our music has to grow, we need new songs, new people, we need to MOVE. it makes me all torn apart inside. GOD HELP ME PLEASE HELP ME HELP ME.
and like i can feel like a terrible friend. but i feel like i have terrible friends also. i need a chloe miller or a jeremy baxter to make me feel good again.

so far i've checked out the nus website. only dentistry looks like a good course to me. which worries me, becos if i don't go in i'll be totally lost. and i guess i'm set on staying here. like, i don't really have a choice. ok don't make me cry again./ trust me, i don't want to go to nus.

2007-07-02T13:26:00.000+08:00

just came back from macdonald's breakfast with my mom and my brother. i know i swore( to myself) not to touch fast food cos it kills you fast and it's like fake food but my brother wanted to eat. so like we went grocery shopping and it was so fun grabbing food and we're having sushi tonight!
oh gosh i'm so tired you know. all these late nights. which is pretty my fault because it's not like i have to study or anything but i nvr tuck myself in in time, and i keep going out and doing stuff which tires me out i think my body is screaming for me to automatically go into snooze.
had a nice long chat with stephanie last night, and we started to talk about like all our mini sagas in sec3 and 4. mel seet! haha.
anyways i have been following wimbledon everyday and i haven't watched a single match of justine hennin! ):
oh ya. and the 'dress' i bought from forever21 is actually a tunic. say OHMYREALLY?
yesterday i followed my family to watch soccer since we were having dinner after that and they won 5-nil. i'm so lucky to catch a win(:
ok i have to admit i was tossing in bed last night because i felt like i have been a bad friend. it's so silly because i'm like this because i'm trying to keep a distance you know. like i know people may think it's dumb or whatever and like ' he's just your friend' but i don't believe i am able to truly cope with that. you know how when you treat guys like your girlfriends, they think that you like them, when you keep your distance they think you're being stuck-up. ya so i was keeping my distance, as is what i have planned to do forever, then i realised that i was being the world's worst most rotten friend. which makes me feel like a mouldy donut now. and i wanted to call, that was what i wanted to do, but my mind was telling me no. so all in all, i feel terrible.

2007-06-30T19:06:00.000+08:00

why hellooo hello.
IM SO DEAD TIRED):
yesterday i went out with steph to vivocity where we shopped so diligently. and she bought like so many things. i tried on a lot but i didn't really like whatever i tried, although i was very appalled to see the whole zara going on sale. it was mobbed, seriously. i've nvr seen all the dresses arranged together, it was almost heaven. but all the dresses' cutting were sorta too big and awkward. i wonder who wears them. it's like wearing your mom's tablecloth. and i did try a lot so this is justified haha. so we hopped off to forever21 where we also spent approximately an hour or so at, going into the dressingroom a million times. but i know i can always count on forever21 (:
but my favouritest buys were from diva haha.
and one tip, ALWAYS bring something to munch on when u go out. you can nvr tell if there's that situation where u don't want to eat at certain places and you're left to eat from breadtalk.
so then i met kailee and we went fr the SHINE meeting, and i was late again. i'm forever late, it's so bad! and i keep taking the train in all the wrong directions, WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. then we walked around heeren with justin
scape park is one interesting place. i can't believe i spent like 6 hours there today!
anyways anyways, i've been reading the book my brother bought for me and it's so GOOD. it puts christian relationships in a place i've nvr seen before. like how you never have to worry because God will really bring you that one special person whom you KNOW is the one. and he will be a christian, one that's so passionate about God and passionate about his life, it's almost exciting! weehoo(:
i can't wait for my birks to come. i can imagine dragging three boxes home when kailee passes them to me in school(:(:

2007-06-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

this is quoted from what i saw on park's blog. haha. and i do agree.
What f***ing order of rxn is that?!?! NB, want to set that kind of qn then teach us during lecture or tutorial arh, dun anyhow set questions we never see before

so the mid-yrs are over! and we had our dinner celebration at aston's at east coast road. i really did like the blackpepper chicken(: plus we had expensive chocolate fondue at the stonegrill restaurent place after that. there are people at my house so i can't watch wimbledon): i can't wait for them to go home so i can go superglue my butt to the couch and eat my chips and watch my favourite handsome tennis players(:
i don't feel liberated, just really tired. maybe because i know mid-yrs is really only the beginning of another difficult few months to go all the way to the dreaded As/ and truth be told, i wish to study overseas. but being the weepy mommy's darling i am i don't think i can last a week without flooding the world with my tears. i'm a big crybaby and it's so embarassing.
i've started reading the book my brother for me!
tmr i'll be spending qualiteee time with my bestie so i'm very happy(;
my room is in a hazardous state because there're pens strewn all over my table and notepads everywhere and my files are all segregated into many sub-files. it's a nightmare, i'm almost fearful of opening any file now.
we took our class photo today and it felt so nostalgic. even though it was 15 minutes before our math paper, albeit the fact that the elective hub is ONE COOL PLACE to chill, i felt warm and happy.

2007-06-27T19:13:00.000+08:00

so there's one paper left.
well, i would say that physics was good, gp and econs were alright. it was a pretty good start.
and then came the paper today.
apart from the fact that i had no time, that i studied so darn hard, that i couldn't understand any sick thing, that i thought i was taking H10, albeit in arabic, it went great. ok, so everybody thought it was hell. it's very demoralizing to do something so beyond the function of your brain. i would very much like to publicise our chem paper so people can see how friggin hard the vjc paper is. and like in our school, to get an A is no easy task, it requires effort of humongous proportions, and if anybody should get an A for this paper, i think he should just graduate and take his honours.
it was that bad. the structured was like an appetiser for the kamikaze mcq . have u ever done 30 questions which are all of the same difficulty of like 100 times that of alevels. i hate this.
math tmr. matt says it's very difficult, and he's like a math-zen. KAY.
emo emo. i'm eating calbee chips now to calm the fire.
cross my heart, i'll laugh it off but deep down i'm really feeling lousy.

2007-06-24T18:54:00.000+08:00

i know i should be studying, but i'm so happy so im gonna blog(: my family's out at my aunt's place and im alone at home becos the mid-yrs COMMENCE TMR!
my brother's back from melbourne and i really can say there's no better way to end this holiday. he bought a lot of stuff back, 24 krispykreme doughnuts, 12 boxes of my favourite cheese crackers,
a little miss sunshine tee for me and a book which i will definitely eat into the moment my math paper ends of thursday, honey and stuff, boomerangs, lots of funny posters and so on. IT'S JUST SO GREAT THAT HE'S BACK!!!!!! and i think he really misses us haha.
this holiday has been fulfilling, amidst teaching myself discipline, getting to those books, doing cip, spending time with my friends, getting to see how wonderful they truly are and how much they mean to me. and last but not least, how i've had time to do my quiet time with God, to thank him that i have someone who loves me so much whom i can love back with my whole heart. i love you God, thanks for being with me all the time(:

2007-06-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

Go make your next choice be your best choice
And if you're looking for a boy with a voice, well baby I'm single
Are you in the mood for some dude, are you in the mood to be subdued
Or would you rather just mingle?
Let's get set then to go then and let us jet set we'll be like the jetsons
You can be Jane my wife. Should I marry Jane tonight?
I would if I could. I'd do OH anything spontaneously.

guitar+guy=double-kill

studystudystudy!
yesterday this boy from my primary school chatted with me online and asked if i was in vj, i said yes, and he said ' omg that's wonderful' . omg that's funny. hahaha.

2007-06-21T23:29:00.001+08:00

2007-06-21T14:43:00.001+08:00

shoes shoes and more shoes. the fairy one is VERY NICE right. but it's like vans for guys, and it's just so pretty omg. but i wouldn't exactly like think it's cool if a guy wears it. haha. becos i will imagine the whole ***** of it. ahha. finally ordered my birks, although i'm pretty sad that i had to get the blue one cos i wanted the pink one but they didn't have my size AGAIN. anyway, it's going to come by mail, hopefully like on thursday so it'll be like a present for studying so hard(:
online shopping is so fun, especially with the online-currency converter(: GOT SO MUCH TO DO!BESIDES STUDYING, which is my first priority, i have my top-3 achievements untouched, unthought, self-evaluation, cip to go for, youth service to prepare for, ok my brother's coming back at least tt's one good thing. and REALLY SO MUCH MORE I HAVE TO HAVE TO DO, INCLUDING TUNING MY PIANO. mmmmmmmmmmmmm ): i seriously need another week. and i HAVE been staying home this week, no kidding!

2007-06-19T01:50:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA
HELLO, ARE YOU THINKING OF ANGULAR MOMENTUM. LIGHTEN UP(:

2007-06-18T16:41:00.001+08:00

have u ever met, the evil paperbag.

just came back from raffles city. spent the morning doin the usual studying at starbucks plus the cafe latte. me and gladys went to check out birkenstocks. i really love the madrid folklore rose so i'm getting it. and guess what, i fit the size 35 ok woohoo. i was amazed that my feet were small enuf. they opened river island, and i tell you the place is GORGEOUS. it's a good place to shop,seriously. just remember to pack cash. anyway, i tried on this dress at miss selfridge which i realllllly wanted but they didn't have my size): there was size 6 for white but i wanted the baby turqoise one. and they don't have it in singapore anymore, and it's no longer on their website either. it's meant to be. gladys told me tt mak asked me to go studying with them so i can make friends with him. okay i'm feeling the singlehood now. hahaha. gladys, don't be worried.

i'm left with DREADED VECTORS and intro to macdonalds. just kidding. if i finish tonight, i'm a FREE WOMAN. yay.

by the way, i think my brownie is too dang delicious. it's like better than mrs fields' and famous amos. hahahaha. ohgooob.

just because i watch nadal play tennis everyday on supersports doesn't mean i like daniel, mom.

2007-06-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just want to pack you up into a tinyperson, put you on my shoulders so we'll always walk together and i know i can talk to you anytime i want.
have you wanted something so much and held back with every inch of your strenth.

today we baked BROWNIES AND COOKIES. yes you're lookin at a real baker. WAHA. although the first batch was like chao-tar gross. i was going to take a nap cos i reallly didn't want to do any studying then my best friend called and said ' wanto BAKE! '. so. oh and the trauma of my ugly powerpoint slides being seen by every person in church is over, heehee.
i need to know WHO HE IS ! shucks, it's always like tt. maybe it's good. it's like how u should only meet people like worldchampion once. it's just better for you.
i'll be at rafflescity tmr at 9 am, don't try to look for me (:

2007-06-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

i pity everybody but i LALLOVE the song accidentally in love by counting crows.
sing sing sing sing sing!
it's been playing the whole night. and it's still groovy. haha. everytime they say ' surrender to the strawberry icecream' it's like WAHA.
last night, was a good night of studying for me. and although we watched 50 first dates at 2 am and the voices were like echoing it was still nice.
OKAY, PAPPILLIO TIME!

2007-06-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

alright so it's 1139 and im still on this com,
and i really don't know why
till it hit me
BURN.
duh, because tonight nobody's going to remind me i actually needa catch some sleep
it feels a tad weird. and a bit quiet.
maybe i should go back to pretending to work, then again.
i'll probably freak out over some math problems and start going down the philosophical lane of why studying is so pussy. which requires maybe 20 hours of sound counselling.
i might go lie down , take a bit of camomile, maybe hit on some wine, imagine i'm in a meadow with many bunnies, away from me thankyou.
maybe pick up the papers, see what's going on beyond the circle i'm standing in, think of my gp for a second, semi-rant at how the same 'bad' things happen in the world over and over again.
i think i need some pina colada. add on the ' assorted cheese and crackers' . and don't lookat me like that. i'm swimming next week.
well, that's a suggestion.

2007-06-12T17:51:00.000+08:00

sometimes you choose to bury love away
not because you stopped loving
but because you loved too much
packeted away, a beautiful memory unblemished

2007-06-11T14:57:00.000+08:00

explosion of emotions.
i have nvr rolled my eyes in such weariness.
i have just jumped off a mountain
i painted till my limbs became play-dough
my appetite is small, good grief.
i have tonnnes of books waiting for me, thousands of pages to flip
3 achievements to cook up a story on
many mails awaiting to be received.
i'm very agitated with a person named kenny.
a programme awaiting to be prepared, far alone i stand.
a prayer to prepare. powerpoints to birth.
when people don't reply me in 3 minutes, i feel like throwing my phone into the bin because technology kinda sucks.
infact, i am going to let my phone run out of battery and i'm nvr going to charge it again. i'll give it to my father and pack 10 cent coins with me. a bundle.

OKAY PEIFANG PICK YOUR BUTT UP OFF THE FLOOR, DUST AWAY ALL THIS CRUEL SELF-DEPRECIATING FEELINGS AND START MAKING MIRACLES.

2007-06-05T09:59:00.000+08:00

alrighty
the cruise was quite fun as usual, and surprise surprise guess who joined the cruise without telling me on purpose! (: what a pleasant surprise! just to say, i didn't drink at all. yes when everybody was ordering drinks i ordered a whole pot of hot chocolate. for myself of course. such resistance(: it's cool la, thought it'd be a boring company thing but at least i had one friend haha. and i bought my new baby from clinique from the DFS next to the bellini(;
not that i didn't attempt to study, since i brought my whole econs file plus the darn tys there. but there was roland garros on tv and i was too distracted watching federer and janchovic(:

went swimming with steph yesterday, i have improved AHAH. yeah then we went to town and shopped. she got this iloveET shirt. makes me think of the mrs ET i drew in sec3 which i insisted on giving her as a present though i'm postive she hated it/ bought a nice polo from ralph lauren and this sweater from far east. far east has a lot of chain eateries that i think we should all try when we have the time! and the stomach.

ok i have to rush to do what needs to be done today ):
i want to play tennis la, seriously! who wants to play tennis with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
roland garros from 5pm to 9. it's yet another tv marathon that my eyes can't resist.

2007-05-27T22:52:00.001+08:00

it's a late collect. oh i miss ginny lots):

i was so stressed that i contemplated flying away to australia. even if nobody wants to listen i'm sure my brother will listen. it feels terrible because nobody cares.

2007-05-25T16:55:00.000+08:00

quickie.
yesterday was the soccer 3rd-4th placing match and of course i was there :) even if nobody announced it or hired buses, yes. it's obvious isn't it. yes we're all mad but we're over it. so we were all afraid the few of us would be the only lonehearts cheering but guess wad, the victorian spirit is alive and even though we weren't pposed to go MANY TURNED UP. and we won, which is doubly fun though it's quite a heartache cos i know they could have made it to the finals. sigh! oh well, we love our soccer team, they are OUR CHAMPS, i loved cheering for them because they put up such a good game yesterday!
well, after tt,celebration dinner in holland v/ it's a nice place seriously! we had crystal jade and swenson's for afters. sheeiok(: and i'm so proud because my contacts lasted all the way to 11 pm, i'm so good haha.
just came back from simpang breakfast and pirates of the carribean is a good movie. especially since orlando bloom married keira knightley :D ahah. i'm glad!
i just spent 10 minutes typing this although i should be rushing off to get ready fr the concert. I CAN'T ALWAYS BE LATE. adios!

2007-05-23T18:35:00.000+08:00

2007-05-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

oh i've been so busy tonight . look at my magazine(; inspired masterpeice which i superimposed. my textbook :D
hahahah.
oh quick one, ikea shopping on sunday ( i would like to say that i'm quite a good shopping PARTNER in fact yes? ) i came out with absolutely zilch(:
thaipan today with misskailee and mrrh. the security guard was being unnecessary/
oh i've such an exciting line-up(: DINNER ON THURSDAY! simpang( i hope ) and pirates of the caribbean on friday and majestia concert and i can see gladys, chianyeh and gladys' bf haha. and help steph take secret photos of her heart-throb. and i'm playing with the youth band for the very first time, mighty exciting.
and i'm feeling so happy over pink fluffy slippers and the great singapore sale and getting to my books and being smart and training my brain and playing my keys and eating dinner at some nice fancy place and my to-be-breakfasts and my hair growing and my fringe not being so irritating and my dad home and my mom not being mad at me and WALA. and my textbook.
((:

2007-05-17T19:36:00.000+08:00

some late photos. see that one got ambushed by the tpjc girl. haha. there's a whole album of photos actually but here's just a little(:
anyway, my dad's overseas again after returning from czech, i miss him so much! really really.

oh tuesday was super funny. we played SSOM. OMG. i have seriously nvr laughed so hard for such a long time. i think i'm really quick with my decisions though haha, and i know it's so nonsense. we played in the canteen, then in chem lesson cos we all were conveniently sitting in the same row. haha. and i realise i have remarkable tolerance for P**S. HAHA.
and jiaying was going on and on about her mermaid costume for senior dinner and dance. it was hilarious hohum. kailee and me need dates for SDD!
anyways, the three of us went to cut our hair today. and jy's boyfriend said we all look like sisters cos we somehow came out with like the same hair. haha. and and and gurmit and michelle interviewed us for makan places! OHGOODNESS. anyway kailee took some damn funny unglam photos of jiaying getting her hair cut. haha. enjoy! ( nexttime)

2007-05-12T14:09:00.000+08:00

goodwoodparkhotel hightea! beautiful cakes and wonderful company(:
woke up at 730 today for macbreakfast(:
and a haberdasher week of chemistry awaiting me.

2007-05-12T14:08:00.001+08:00

2007-05-08T20:05:00.000+08:00

saturday was absolutely fun. got to spend time with gladys whom i only get to see once in like 2 months. and we had breakfast at Starbucks, snacks at chippy's and shopped shopped shopped(:
got to have a lil chat with Mr Chan during lunch break(:
we ran our 2.4 today and I've outdone myself. I'm so proud of myself(: especially after seeing those guys who ran slower than me and many other girls! heehaw.
shall go cut my split ends now. learn from jiaying. you can cut your hair at home. i can't bear to go to school with my split ends.
i'm hooked on two songs now which i have to wait eons to load on youtube cos some virus wiped out my downloading programme):
happy birthday my dearest brudddddaaaaaaaaaaa!
i miss my dad who is in Czechoslovakia. no more morning bonding chats. ahha.
rosalindpoh says xiaxue's got some heavy duty shite lashes that weigh one kg.muahaha.
when my mom fetched me today my granny was in the car and i felt so happy to send her home together(;
and did i mention. yesterday i was suffering from the aftereffects of the save-money diet, which is what i've created so that i eat separate small meals which involves me using coins only( which i find out is more costly than eating one proper meal i'm so dumb) so that i don't end up touching my notes so i can save tonnes of money. it's like a fun game that ends up with me counting coins all the time and sulking. well it doesn't work cos i've already used up all the coins i can possibly find in the house ak and yond my piggybank is absolutely impotent now. and it's not a coin diet, it's a coin wipe-out. what a totally incorrect strategy that is making me waste more money actually. ok i've digressed.
yes so i met my mom and she bought me oldchangkee which was like 'wow food' so i was so happy. ok i sound like a hobo . anyway.EVIL COIN DIET. then i was in the lift in whitesands chewing of my sweetpotato-on-a-stik and these rowdy nothing better to do guys were looking at me weirdly. then one asked ' eh chinese or malay?' in my mind i was like ' hello i finally get to eat my sweetpotato-on-a-stiu whom i don't know wants to talk to me and disturb the fine moment?' but there were other people so i just did a C with my free hand. then they were like oohahhohh and he said' eh my friend wants to know you'. INALIFT HELLO?! what's wrong with this city, really. and he tapped my shoulder when i walked out. if i wasn't in a good mood i would have used my stick to poke his nose i swear!

kay i need to go get my hair cut and study some dumb books to give my brains a workout. (:

shoutout- if i haven't been seeing you, remember you're still in my mind
if i haven't been talking to you, don't worry there's always time
if i haven't been nice to you, i'm sorry i'll offer you my sleeve

2007-05-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

2007-05-02T17:30:00.000+08:00

oh wow it's been so long!
so the new aircon finally came so we won't have to suffer while watchin tv no more.
a lizard terrorised my room friday night and i wailed like a baby but finally my daddy CHASED IT AWAY. i would have preferred if it was eternally exterminated. so, monday morning for some strange reason the trauma of the night before still hung with me, along with my swollen eyes.
tuesday was billybombers with my family n kimi and it was so yummy(;
and tmr is shopping day yay!
i miss playing squash lots n lots. and i still want to find someone to play tennis with me! watching federer on tv everyday is inspirational.
omg napfa next week. and i haven't ran for gazilllion years. and chem BIGBIG test two weeks later. phototaking on next wed. essay this friday.
i'd like to put everything down and fly away to another planet just for a day or so.
and YOU must come NOWNOWNOWNOW.
last night i sat in bed, quite happy after watching prison break where michael saved tancredi, i switched off the light and watched tv to sleep. it's quite sad that my room tv has no cable. mm.

2007-04-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

oh i feel so terrible! just had sakae buffet. total count - 111 plates. what a scary number, but i valiantly bowed out after 16 plates to watch the rest becos it was simply toomuchtotake so i'm the smallest contributer(: they ate as though they all had a balloon of a stomach. shocking. seriously! hha. and so i spent most of my time sitting there watching them stuff their faces. haha/ though i think 16 is not bad for a girl already. me and ASH complained about our tummy upsets, which we concluded were exactly the same. so we took the bus home and bidded each other ' relief your bowels well' . hahaha. it's so funny.

who should i go out with on saturday? i'm in a dilemna.

OHOHOH. this morning at approximately 6.10, or whatever time it was after i threw my alarm off,
i dreamt i was holidaying in tasmania. THEN, my dad told me just now that we're gonna go on a road trip in australia at the end of the year, including TASMANIA he says!! how cool is that. i should spend my mornings sleeping so i can get nice dreams.

2007-04-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

physics? go figure.

circuits? don't bother.

electromagnetism? contort my left hand please.

it's been six lectures on vectors. i have seriously stopped listening.

i'm slowly losing my mind with all the unnecessary.

i'm not going to sleep now. i am going to read my PHYSICS notes. that's right. i'm not going to think about anything else until friday's over. that's right. my hangout- the saunaic library. sakae with the girls tmr. and after tt, i'll come home and study. if i don't understand everything by friday, i'm going into solitary confinement on sunday. i need to get smart ASAP. there's no more time!

and LOrd, help me make this impossible decision. it's totally draining away all my time.

2007-04-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

i'm wondering if my whole life revolves around you.

in some funny way you are always there when i need someone.

today's a good day to think about this.

i don't feel like doing any work.

circuits are too complex.

anyways, i got to have a lil chat with steph this week!

and i wanna go to dramanite. annnnnnnnnna!!

i'm terytery excited to go shopping with gladys on saturday! (:

no more training? HOW's life w/o training. i really don't have a clue.

will i become smarter? (:

2007-04-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

HI
today i had a sinkin feeling in my heart. last match. in the cab i ' emo-ed' all the way to yiochukang.
in my mind i was like ' you better win this for mr chan' . and first rachel went in and totally thrashed ny. then sharon lost and i was like OHNO. then sinhwee went in and thrashed. then i started playing. and my match lasted longer than sinhwee AND YH's. yes i'm tired. but still i won, 9-0 second set(: . and while i was ohplease i don't want to be the deciding match, but actually we'd already won but i didn't know. oh good. oh well, squash's over! kinda sad, but mmmm. nj match was all drama and two casualties and we lost. i felt like i was watching desperate housewives. so we all cam-whored with all the other schools today. i'm gonna miss the team and mrchan SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i wanna cry.
ok so it's time for me to go design our squash tee.

i need TLC!
i want 400 hours of sleep, squash training to never stop, to see my brother, to shop with stephanie, eat brownies, watch a movie, buy a camera, get my dad's phone, new hair, swim swim swim, go on a holiday with my family, learn jazz piano, my granny to get well.

2007-04-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

hello MY LOVE!

2007-04-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

i have to say this.
MY LIFE IS VERY, UTTERLY, SADLY, UNAPPROPRIATELY, SORRILY, BORING.
if it's not school work, catching up on stupid math assignments, for the first time absolutely giving new light to the term flunk for my physics test ( i wrote a formula wrong, how retarded can my brain get seriously ), no really i'm going to fail a test for the first time and i'm not just going to fail it i'm going to get zilch, training day in day out, coming back home like a zombie, not having ANY TIME for ANYBODY.
i can't recall the last time i even HUNG OUT
when was the last time i went to star bucks.
when was the last time i saw my best friends. and like nobody's free to goout with me. TSSSK.
when was the last time i chatted with my cousin.
when was the last time i went shopping.
when was the last time i actually went out at night and not in uniform or -_-pe. oh deaaar ):
maybe i'll get lost in orchard if i go now.
i need to rid myself of this unhealthy lifestyle that revolves around school only. ew ew ew ew ew!
i want to go melbourne now to see my brother la. life here stinks.
tsssk tsssk tsssk I WANT TO GO OUT .

you tore the veil says:
hes not for u man
you tore the veil says:
hes a freaking ROCKER
you tore the veil says:
but he just got baptised
you tore the veil says:
YES
sunshine says:
he looks totally not
you tore the veil says:
he screams rock music
you tore the veil says:
duno
you tore the veil says:
haha
you tore the veil says:
hes a christian
you tore the veil says:
!
you tore the veil says:
=)
you tore the veil says:
plus pt la
sunshine says:
i like his high sneakers. ahhahahaaa
you tore the veil says:
DARYL AND PINRUI WEAR HIGH SNEAKERS TOO
sunshine says:
aiya
sunshine says:
DIFFERENT!
you tore the veil says:
i knw
you tore the veil says:
hahaha

2007-04-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

pretty isn't it!

anyway,
yesterday was pretty funny. justin came over cos his mom's helping us install this air-conditioning system that goes throughout the house. whatever it is. whenever i see him i feel so happy! at night we went to visit my grandma! and we had supper at adam's road. i prefer indian prata much more to malay prata. anyway, it was late and i was eating ketupat and satay and feeling very disgusted with myself. ahah.
today was so fun! leading worship was good today, and the session was quite useful. and playing chops with benjamin. last week i had a butterfly sticker, this week my hand ambushed with chops. yes i do feel pretty young. (:
went shopping a lil after church. bought SOCKS haha. my mom wanted to buy me scrunchies but i decided i didn't need to satisfy every want. it's unhealthy.
i'm lookin fwd to training tmr. crucial matches on wed and fri. COMEON . and the softball and soccer matches i'd love to catch!
there's a physics test tmr and i'm totally not in the mood to read about DC CIRCUITS. because i think there's something wrong with my brain i cannot register any thing that involves wires or whatever thingies they have. i don't suck at physics, i suck at circuits. period.

2007-04-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

oh GOODWEEK!

i got back my PEYEWDOUBLEYOU results and i got an A yayyay!
the weirdest thing happened yesterday. me and ginny decided to go train ourselves and mr chan came to do drills with us. and yuhe from guys' team brought his classmates to play. and suddenly the whole soccer team comes and decides to lie at the gallery, they seemed to be either meditating or somethin before their match. and lucky ole me gets the glasscourt right in front of them while ginny's ELSEWHERE! w/o me! i have never seen so many people, BOYS, at the squash courts. it was quite intimidating and scary. and isn't it weird that they'd come to the squash courts anyway. must be the ceiling fans.

i like blue this week. it's a good colour.

i think fish&co's brownie is the nicest.

squash is really fun. and i don't want to stop training even if season ends. WHICH IS NEXT WEEK. but it's hard to find people to play with. that loud sound you get when u smash . it feels so damn good. you can't get that in tennis. speaking of which i'm all excited to start playing after season. but wait, squash is funner. and more exciting. and faster. and it's 2-dimensional unlike tennis. and it's easier to kill in squash then in tennis. URH.
i have yet to see a good looking squash guy. haha.
squash is fun cos u can play hours without getting sun burnt
squash skirts are doubly fun.
GOSH i feel so sad, i don't want to end training!!
and i'll miss dear ginny, sinhwee and the rest and mr chan! who actually asked my friend today, do you know what her name is? hill TORtoise. haha.

:(
pshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
stupid blue.

2007-04-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

don't miss out on ben&jerry's !

match tmr, and i'm feeling quite good since i'm playing 5th. much less pressure from the previous one when i played 2nd.

it was video marathon the whole weekend, almost. except for the dinner thing last night
the cinderella story- is chad michael murray a super dreamy hotcake or what! he looks a lot better than he did in one tree hill. i want to have him on take-away!
and daniel henney, whoa. tvland is my eyecandy!

gelare date on tuesday. and hopefully i can catch up with steph over coffee on thurs.

i want to be a happy girl this week. keep me happy ok! (:

2007-04-05T17:52:00.000+08:00

finally the week is over and i feel duper happy,
i'm supposed to wash up get ready and leave the house in an hour so i thought i might write somethin
this week was major binge week with jiaying. but i think i've had enuff.
did a lil shopping at parkway after school cos it was
too early to go home and be bored and do nothing.
i had a terrible dream this morning about my verification slip, i dreamt that i changed from science to arts and submitted my form. and when i finally realised the dumbness of it, and the fact that all my spas were over and completed, i called my teacher and he said it was too late. i woke up like it was the end of the world to realise i overslept yet again.
i have been reaching school past 735 everyday. and yet i've only been late once (: i'm so good. haha

i feel like dyeing my hair jet black in 5 seconds.

today we conversed in mandarin to help park because of his hsk exam thing. and i'm greatly appalled by the standard of my classmates' chinese because it's verygood. i should be so ashamed.

2007-04-01T16:52:00.000+08:00

THE BEAUTY OF SHOES.
and yet i always wear slippers.
tsk!
i love them(:

2007-03-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

okay.
the week started off pretty good and pretty much went downhill along the way.
wednesday was team dinner at cartel, endless waiting till 9 pm before we ordered all the cakes available. we played a very fun game called ' i never ' and all those ridiculous confessions came flowing free. it's seriously hilarious in it's raw nature. the girls seem to know why i like who i like. it's pretty funny.

and then,
thursday there was so much hooha about the team jerseys not arriving and us hitting the roof when they said we had to wear our PE SHIRTS. u can imagine, how stupid it'd be.
and i got back my GP and i held back every urge in me to cuss in colourful language but i'm still really pissed with my lacklustre work. i haven't written such s*** essays in like 10 months. it gave me a headache. gp's irritating me a hundred million times more than losing my match. who'd have known they would have hired the top coach. mmmm.

i need to compose myself, because i really feel like saying many bad things that will ruin me.
so far,
i have 4 ICKY irritants
and zero goodies.
shums.

2007-03-27T13:43:00.000+08:00

even if you pour a bucket of ice water on my head
i will still smile goofily.
dannnnng.
PEIFANG, CONCENTRATE!

2007-03-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

it's a beautiful sunday,
and today is a wonderful day
i'm smiling all day
because the day is good
i hope all my days are like today
thank you Lord for my fantastic day

i'm sighing all day,
don't really know what's the matter with me.
if you knew what i was thinking
would u get a heart attack?
sometimes, u can't tell why
one heart is divided

thankgoodness i still have one motivation.

2007-03-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

We’ll sleep with clouds as pillows, maybe steal an angel’s wings,
Then fly as magic lovebirds, or slide round Saturn’s rings,
And should we tire of drifting and the stars all floating by,
We’ll hook onto a meteor and soar across the sky.
Will you consent to be my mate on our celestial ship?
I’m ready, heart all packed with love, to last us for the trip,
Take my hand and step aboard, we’re heading for the sun,
We’re flying till we find the place where our two souls are one.
(:

i was very distracted today at training so i really played quite horribly, my apologies. and thanks to the dumb purple grip of mine which is giving me endless pain, imma change it to the pure white wilson one my brother gave me(: what an opportunity! and i think i need new sneakers.
twooooo spas next week and my first match. pshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2007-03-22T20:10:00.000+08:00

First week of school- it's really still the holidays
i got back all my results, except for gp which we all don't quite want now
we had pizza on tues and
we caught the mrbean holiday movie at suntec today. it makes you laugh hysterically , and u have to sorta act serious just so you don't laugh non-stop
and i bumped into lien, jocelyn and joel( twice ! ) today which makes me happy!
and we bought some stuff from skinfood fr *******, and i think they sell very nice-smelling tantalising taste-worthy products.
and kailee baked super delicious cookies on monday and we all couldn't stop eating, and i'm down with this irritating sore throat and chronic sinus. a lot of people are havin sore throats, so we all have sexy voices(:

played with the squash guys team yesterday, just so they could make us run a lil and think more. at least i managed to get one game from marcus, haha, and hearing him say shit makes me feel quite good although i must have cussed quite a bit too. and i'm having 4 corns, it's making me really mad. cos one's on my palm.
oh! and i played squash with weiming and rh for pe! ahha.

okay, saturday's time for some badly-needed friend bonding. i gotta detach myself from school and books,period.

2007-03-18T18:01:00.000+08:00

i am slowly losing faith in you

2007-03-16T18:31:00.000+08:00

yay i finally plucked up enough gusto to march myself to the hairdresser's after much mopping around in my depressant state.
what i love about kimage is the wonderful service. although 32 bucks doesn't seem to have done much to this hair of mine.

my hairstylist says: so what have u been doing! it's the hols
i say: training la, like everyday
huh? then u can't watch movies
yeah!

then he asks about my brothers

my hair is so thick!
that's why, do you have to tie it up when u go to school?
yeah ( sad face )
SO PATHETIC!
have you been using conditioner?
yeah!
good girl

i think he must be thinking tying hair is a stupid school rule.

so have you found a boyfriend?
no..
haven't you been looking?
i smile a little.
what about the last one?
i shake my head.
ahh... disobedient huh?
i smile .
next time, must open your eyes! you wooing someone?
no! we should wait for guys right?
please! nowadays, no such thing la! what if u wait and he waits?
i laugh.

nicest hairstylist ever!

actually this week has been plagued with many many problems, which has made me really moody. i feel like i've aged 20 years this week. and i have nobody to confide it. sucks.